Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Right Now

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Fake Spring #2 has started here.  It's wonderful and Daughter and I enjoyed a long walk around the neighborhood.  We went down to the river and threw in some rocks.  She talked and I listened. That's the thing about being quiet, you end up listening a lot and that's okay.  I prefer it.  You also become really adept at reading non verbal cues; figuring out what people mean even though they aren't saying it.  I don't have to do that with Daughter though.  She's young and just says what she means.  It's a trait I admire, but we all lose it because it's not socially acceptable.  I wish I could bottle it for her so she'll always have it.  That and her wonder.  She still thinks there are diamonds in the snow and a rock is a seashell.  Let her think it; it makes the world seem more magical.  

On my twitter feed there's a frightening new diet trend.  I want to start a revolution where we teach our daughters to love themselves by modelling a world in which we love ourselves.  A world in which we eat right because it makes our bodies feel good, but we don't feel guilty and criticize ourselves for an occasional slice of pizza.  Surely I can't be the only one?

Monday, January 30, 2012

The Weekender

Saturday was spent getting the kids to the sitter and getting Husband and I to the city.  It was nice to be reminded that we have a life outside the kids and so we did things we wouldn't normally do with the kids.  First was the sad and beautiful film Norwegian Wood (based on the book by Haruki Murakami).  Then a stop by the record store and vintage arcade museum; after that Chinatown where we bought Daughter a bento box for her lunch next year (shockingly early I know; totally not our usual style); and finally dinner at Three Aces.  The next day was spent a little more casually and I got photos (because I know some of you really only read this for the photos).

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Crochet

There was the very first game of Trouble (Star Wars style), a lot of fighting the cat for the record player (I won!), and crochet.  It was a really nice relaxing Sunday; a very balanced weekend for all.  

 

Friday, January 27, 2012

{This Moment}

{this moment} - A Friday ritual. A single photo - no words - capturing a moment from the week. A simple, special, extraordinary moment. A moment I want to pause, savor and remember. If you're inspired to do the same, please leave a link in the comments to your moment.  

SouleMama

 

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Some sewing

Nightdress

Nightdress

Nightdress

Son is on the mend and yesterday allowed me to get off the couch and make some flannel pajamas for both him and his sister.  The material may have had written on there not intended for children's sleepwear, but that didn't stop me.  The material for Daughter's Night Dress (from the book Making Children's Clothes) was found at the local material store Material Girl.  I love that shop so much and I truly want to buy almost everything in there, but I try really hard not to be like my Mom and just have shelves of material that I don't know what to do with.  While it would be nice, I simply don't have the room.

flannel pants

flannel pants

flannel pants

Son's fabric was a remnant from Hancock Fabrics.  I was going to use it to make some handkerchiefs, but there was just enough for a pair of pants for him.  I used the same New Look pattern that I always use for his pants, but I added a 1/2 inch onto the leg.  He's getting taller, but hasn't yet outgrown that size.  Soon I'm going to try to make him a lined pair of pants using this tutorial.  

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Today I show you.

Knitting with a toddler

Magic Loop Mitts

Magic Loop Mitts

Magic Loop Mitts

This is how I've been knitting lately, with a toddler on my lap.  Son's got a big of a cold and in the morning we've held down the couch pretty well lately.  So please forgive the short posts of this week.  I have a Son to help make healthy and copious amounts of coffee to drink because colds are the worst at night.  I'm not quite sure how Husband makes it through the day without caffeine. I envy him.

Among the many wrist warmers I've done and not photographed are these Magic Loop Mitts.  I used some left over Malabrigo from the Textured Shawl* that I did (also didn't get a photograph of, but it was given to Daughter because it wasn't large enough for me) and although it was a pain to roll into balls it is beautiful yarn.  I just absolutely love the depth of the color and how soft it is.  I also imagine it's pretty warm.

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Grateful

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  • I am grateful that I don't have to take Son out in the cold to get Daughter from the bus.
  • I am grateful for all the bus drivers that deliver children home safely on a daily basis.
  • I am grateful that Son is always excited when Daughter comes home.
  • I am grateful that they get along so well.
  • I am grateful for reminders of Spring.
  • I am grateful for Husband's job which allows him to stay home.
  • I am grateful we are able to send Daughter to a good school.
  • I am grateful we live in an established neighborhood where the trees are old and large, and the neighbors are friendly.
  • I am grateful for a roof over our heads, food on the table, and warmth in the house.
  • I am grateful for all of you.

Monday, January 23, 2012

What if?

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I played the what if? game late into last night when I couldn't sleep.  In case you've never played it goes something like this

  • What if I'd never transferred colleges?
  • What if I'd not gotten a roomate that looked through all my stuff and I hadn't had to changed rooms?
  • What if I'd been a better teenager?
  • What if I'd never kicked (then future) Husband's butt at Frogger?
  • Would we have still talked?
  • What if my friend hadn't tried to commit suicide?
  • Would (then future) Husband and I have still talked into the wee hours of the night (just not in the ER)?
  • What if we had stayed in our college town like Husband had wanted?
  • What if we had kept our plans to not have kids?
  • What if we only had Daughter (like we had planned)?

There's more too, but I think you get the point. I can't imagine what life would be like if any of those what if's weren't what if's and I'm not sure I'd like it nearly as much. There's really no point dwelling on it and I do try to live in the moment, but these are the things that creep up in the middle of the night when I can't sleep.  And it makes me so thankful for my life because even if it wasn't the life I had planned; it is exactly the life I need. 

Also, please don't be fooled by the photos.  We're still covered in snow and it's a bit gloomy out today. 

Friday, January 20, 2012

Friday Moment

{this moment} - A Friday ritual. A single photo - no words - capturing a moment from the week. A simple, special, extraordinary moment. A moment I want to pause, savor and remember. If you're inspired to do the same, please leave a link in the comments to your moment.  

SouleMama

 

 

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Thursday, January 19, 2012

hello winter

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After fake spring a little over a week ago, I was completely unprepared for winter.  Sure I had hats, mittens and scarves all ready to go, but I forgot just how cold winter can be.  I need someone to start a fire and get me some woolens.

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My kids were fully prepared though (we always prepare the kids before we prepare ourselves don't we?).  Snow pants, warm waterproof jackets, and mom made wool hats and gloves.  All of those things have now stood up to hours out in the snow (for Daughter) and trips to the bus stop.  Which is good because tomorrow we're expected to get 7-10 inches (last I heard).  

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Daughter could not be more excited.  Me?  I need to work on some gloves for myself.

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

A different kind of WIP Wednesday

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Daughter got a lot of crafty supplies for Christmas and she's putting them to good use.  On this particular day she made a crown (I know children's art work isn't always obvious).  I get a joy in seeing her craft even though it's not the same kind of crafting I do.  I didn't always start out good either; I can remember terribly drawn photos and dioramas with popsicle sticks and shoe boxes. I didn't have glue sticks though - that would have made everything easier.

I'm not sure what happened to the crown, but she wore it all day with pride.

Monday, January 16, 2012

I'm not angry anymore.

I have been told I'm an old soul numerous times; more times than I can remember.  Perhaps because I got angry with other kids for not behaving at a young age.  Perhaps it's because I was obsessed with why people hate.  Perhaps it's because I had so much angst as a teen/young adult. Perhaps it's because I remember too much and at the same time nothing at all.

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I remember that someone once asked Husband "are you sure you want to marry her?"   I remember that someone once moved and didn't bother to even call and say goodbye.  I remember a couple of times when my diary was read by people I was supposed to be able to trust.  I remember at the age of 10 becoming a little environmentalist (I was going to save the world!).  I remember fighting with girls on the playground because I identified as a feminist (I was born a feminist).  I remember meeting Husband for the first time (but I have no idea what we talked about).  I remember holding each of my children for the first time.

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I remember how all of those things made me feel.  Sometimes joy, sometimes hurt and sometimes anger.  When I was young I used to let anger control and define me; needless to say it was unhealthy.  I did things to myself that I am sure no one would ever want their children to do.  I have learned to forgive, to let the anger go and become a better person.  If you ever meet me and I recall these things and you think you see a flash of anger on my face, it's not because I'm still angry.  It's not because I'm bitter.  It's because I remember.

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"People will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."  - Maya Angelou

 

*all photos taken by Daughter 

Friday, January 13, 2012

Waiting

{this moment} - A Friday ritual. A single photo - no words - capturing a moment from the week. A simple, special, extraordinary moment. A moment I want to pause, savor and remember. If you're inspired to do the same, please leave a link in the comments to your moment.  

SouleMama

 

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Waiting

{this moment} - A Friday ritual. A single photo - no words - capturing a moment from the week. A simple, special, extraordinary moment. A moment I want to pause, savor and remember. If you're inspired to do the same, please leave a link in the comments to your moment.  

SouleMama

 

Sneaky

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Sleep

Sometimes being a Mom is gritty, tiring and horrible.  It's not for everyone and I completely respect that.  When I was younger I used to say I'd rather regret not having kids than ever regret having them.  I still believe that regretting not having kids is preferable; it's better to not screw up tiny human beings by regretting you had them.  And for the record I don't regret having either of my kids, even when I've only had 6 hours of sleep for 5 nights in a row and I fear I'm losing it. Sleep deprivation is a form of torture for a reason and it's what my children have been doing to me for the last week.  

Waiting for the bus

 

 

Then there are moments like this.  Where Son has to have a backpack to take his sister to the bus, or when they just have to hold each other's hand, or Daughter helps her brother with his coat.  Those moments remind me that the sleep deprivation won't last forever, but with any luck their relationship will. 

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

WIP* Wednesday

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  • The Sunshine Day Afghan is almost half done.
  • The Mangyle is coming along.  I'm working on the back right now and it's a LOT of stockinette.
  • The start of a pair of Fetching.  I wanted some instant gratification.
  • One of my older *work in progresses.  3 years in the making if you include those 8 months of pregnancy.  And no, that's not a typo.

 

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

a little about us

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I am naturally a quiet person.  I am soft spoken and you need to really listen to hear me.  I rarely yell; simply when I need to get the attention of someone (usually a child).  Yelling is effective because I rarely do it.  I take up space but you may not realize I'm there.  I hate small talk with people I don't know and I only answer the phone if it's my mom on the other end.  Perhaps this is why I like nature so much.  

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Daughter is more like her Dad.  She never had the stranger danger that we were warned about.  She'd go to anyone and talk to anyone.  And people always had something to say to her (usually about her hair).  If you go to the Bog with her she'll play tour guide and tell you when you should take pictures. She really only likes being in nature if there are no bees.

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Son on the other hand has held strong to his stranger danger.  I'm still waiting for him to outgrow it, but I don't think he will.  It's who he is and my mom always warned me that you should be careful of shy boys.  They're always thinking.  If you try to talk to him in the store he'll turn into his Dad or me and instead we'll be telling you how shy he is and he won't talk to you no matter how hard you try and oh yes it is cute.  In truth, it can be really hard.  There are days that the only break I get is at nap time and bed time.  I know it won't last forever so I try to enjoy it.  

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